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Archive for August, 2010

I left off by telling you that I am in my mid-thirties, married with two children and one on the way.  Let me give you a more detailed snapshot of where I am in my life.  Eight years ago I wasn’t married, I had no children, I owned a home and I was living in a perpetual state of spiritual bliss.  I was always happy, feared nothing and I was the most patient and understanding I have ever been, meaning; nothing ever made me angry, sad, frustrated, stressed or anything of the sort.  Nothing!

At that point in my life I was undergoing a spiritual transformation already a good year underway.  One night while I was still living in an apartment I asked God to explain to me why my life was the way it was.  Don’t get me wrong, I was doing okay financially but I was at the end of my second 5 year relationship gone bad.  I asked God to show me my past through his eyes and with his understanding.  Little did I know at the time that I would gain the insight that I did through the experiences I lived.

I learned not only how I created my past but how I was creating my future as well.  I learned to gain control of my thoughts and emotions thus living more in the moment than I had at any point in my life.  I was seeing my creations unfold in my physical reality.  I was able to manifest a promotion, a relationship, a house and the means to start a contracting business all in the same year.  Everything was bliss, perfect and exactly what it was supposed to be.  Nothing was good or bad… it just was.

Shortly after I moved into my first house and began my relationship with my wife, I began seeking a more intellectual explanation of what I had been experiencing.  I found this state of being that encompassed every aspect of my life impossible to explain.  At the moment I made the decision to look for this explanation, my life slowly began to move backwards.   Watching one of my creations come to fulfillment in the exact way I had expressed yet with major life changing implications was the first in a long line of lessons I was about to learn.

Let me explain; while my house was being built, I was single and hadn’t yet met my wife.  I repeatedly stated to those around me and believed that I would be in the house for two years then I was going to move into a bigger house in a nicer neighborhood.  Two years to the day after I moved into the house, I found myself married less than a year with my wife eight months pregnant and moving out of our home due to foreclosure.  We moved into a rental house that was bigger, newer, nicer and in a better neighborhood.  For the most part, exactly what I had visualized in a home but with circumstances that I could not have foreseen.  Creation realized if faith waivers will always throw you an unexpected curveball.

It would take nearly six years for me to see the error of my ways.  Still, I find myself enveloped in old habits.  Only this time I can explain both spiritually and scientifically why my life looks like it does.

I am embarking on my own spirit walk back to the life of faith that I once embraced whole heartedly.  Join me as I open up my life and thoughts to you.  Let me show you life as viewed through the eyes of God as I reconnect with the great I Am.

To be continued.