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It’s been ten months since I have written my thoughts down.  To be honest, it’s been just as long since I have even given much attention to the thoughts in my head.  Tonight seemed to be the right mix of emotions and quiet time to get these out.  It is something that I promised to do for you on a regular basis and yet I have failed in doing so.  For that I apologize.

I stated in my last blog that I was embarking on a spirit walk and that I was going to “open up my life and thoughts to you” as I rectify my own personal spiritual and mental conflicts.  I now believe that I have just simply been making excuses about not doing it because I was afraid of doing so.  I have built up many reasons in my mind to be afraid of sharing with you whom I truly am while reconnecting with God. I believed that I could get there quickly if I just did this or that.  The bitch of it is I assumed I could do it without giving it much effort.  I once heard in a movie that “assumption is the mother of all f**k-ups” How true it is.

Even the thoughts you secretly think and never voice will present themselves at some time in your future.

The other day I read a Facebook post of a new friend that struck a deep cord with me.  To summarize and quote; “A lot can be learned from a streak of misfortune. A better lesson comes in the realization that your “unlucky” streak had nothing to do with luck and more to do with your bad decisions.”

Not more than a month ago I said something similar to myself.  My statement wasn’t quite as elegantly stated as above, in fact it went something like; “You dumb ass! You created all of this yourself.  What did you expect?”  I’ll expound on this statement as time goes on.

The other night, as I reflected on the latter part of the more eloquent version of the message I realized that my so-called “unlucky” streak of the past few years has been due to series of bad choices founded in assumptions.  I have made bad decisions but most of them were because I mistook my ability to view my manifestations as they were unfolding as an ability to better control the exact outcome.  An assumption that I have recently realized has been the bane of my hap-hazard existence these past few years.

A lot can be learned from a streak of misfortune. A better lesson comes in the realization that your “unlucky” streak had nothing to do with luck and more to do with your bad decisions.

It’s only been in the past two or three weeks that I have begun to transform my thought process.  This is no easy task but, I have done it before.  To get where I want to go personally, I must remember how to truly live in the moment.  I must remember in every possible circumstance and situation of my life is my own doing.  I created all of these situations and options for decisions in my life by simply thinking about them and telling myself that I wanted to experience them.  It’s no different for you.  It is the same for every person on the planet.

The challenge is respecting the power of this natural law.  Even the thoughts you secretly think and never voice will present themselves at some time in your future.  The opportunity to experience even your most secret desires will show up in every moment of your life.  The difference between who you want to be and who you are is found in these moments. Who you long too be is usually the culmination of the desires you never voice.  During these profound life altering moments of choice you face every day, your gut and instinct are either pushing you away from or toward a certain choice.

Most people will say (if only to themselves) that they are unhappy with more than one aspect of their life. If you find this applies to you then, I guarantee that in almost every situation of your life your own rationale has interfered with following your heart and listening to your gut because of fear.  Fear of the unknown, fear of loss or fear of regret will ultimately lead to bad decisions and the aforementioned unlucky streak.

The only bad decision in life is neglecting what you know deep down would truly make you happy.

Following your feelings of intuition rather than rationale requires an enormous amount of faith.  You are blinded by rationale most of the time because you try to calculate in your head all of the variables and possible outcomes to every situation.  Intending on doing what is right and best for all involved is merely a form of trying to control your future outcomes and circumstances.  Unfortunately there are just too many variables to logically consider when making decisions.

The only decision that has to be made at any given time is a); do I want to have this experience now? Or b); do I want to experience something else at this moment.  The way to decide is to pay attention not to what you are thinking, but rather what you are feeling.  You can never go wrong with experiencing whatever makes you feel good at that moment.  Allowing fear to take control of your thought process will lead to rationalizing your situation which will lead to assumptions, possible outcomes and more assumptions that result in bad decisions.

The only bad decision in life is neglecting what you know deep down would truly make you happy.  When you look back on your past, will you look with regret or the satisfaction of fulfillment? I choose the latter.

I promise (again) to not let so much time pass before I write again.  The next blog will come shortly so that I can better explain my above statement and let you have a closer view of my personal life.  The blogs that follow will read more like my personal journal.  I haven’t totally left fear behind, but I am getting close. Try it.. It’s fun!